Little things that carved you!

Today, I’m swirling with nostalgia and intense retrospection. Once in a while, you might go back in the flashback, analyzing your entire life and you could either relish or guiltily regret those moments or maybe carry yourself up with pride calling all those regrets a new lesson you learnt! Teenage is the toughest time with everything changing and all the weird things happening around. We keep trying to understand the complexity we face, the way we are changing- our body and mind, our parents overreacting and suddenly becoming over possessed and dealing with these absurd changes, it’s insane!

But the teenage is well gone; it’s like a battle that ended with nobody winning or losing, just crucial lessons that altered you or left you permanent impressions. All this might seem boring philosophical stuff but it’s indeed what all of us feel inside and lose out on words when we really wish to speak out. Speak is a subtle version to explain the screams. We met new people and everybody we met has made us who we are today, shaping the amorphous us! The state we are in today is never what we would have thought; I never imagined life to get this crazy unlike the smooth track it seemed before ‘people’.

Yes. I think major credit goes to your childhood best friends, crushes, lovers, teachers, siblings, cousins or even strangers who gave you a totally different perspective, who warned you beforehand and who guided you in this journey. (I didn’t mention parents because it would be stating the obvious.) So today, things are pretty outside, ugly inside or whatever but we’re completely different than what we had been or for that matter, what we always wanted to be. We chose different streams, we dint really live our childhood dreams and the things we loved are lost in time. Like sand slipping from hands, we couldn't keep anything to ourselves; not even who we used to be.

In the past two decades of your life, you might have made several mistakes; regretted some, learnt something and you are never going to forget the wrongs. For moments which made it tougher to even drag yourselves down this long, you might have felt of giving up and some weak hearts might have succumbed to these little bumps. You might have thought that you’re watching the sunset of your life but you opened your eyes for a new day and here you are today! Honestly, these little lurches make us who we are, the people who left us made us who we are, the people who guided us and who trusted in us when we lost everything we had are the ones who led us to our destiny.

They might have left you long back and let you fall for once or twice till you could walk without tripping. They are the ones who gave you the happiest moments and the harshest lessons; they were indeed the coconuts of your life. So live it up, for those little moments and the people who are around. Failure might put you in deep distress but it isn’t the end. Maybe it’s the new beginning! An old saying says ‘Everything happens for a reason’ but it has been qualified to ‘Everything that doesn't happen is for a better reason!’ Moreover, love yourself with these little evolutionary changes that have given you a beautiful avatar inside! After all, it’s the beauty within that matters the most.