An Angel in my life :)

It’s like I have had this dream for more than a decade, and now it has finally come true. There is a new member in my family, someone new to take care of, someone to love. Within days, he has become so important me. He was awaited for a pretty long time and since he is here, everything seems complete. Like he is the only one I care for, a new member who's now My First Priority! Nothing seems more important when it comes to him.

The moment I looked at him, I sort of fell in love with him at the first glance. His tiny eyes that melt your heart, little hands I hold and a sleepy head; he is adorable. And when I took him in my arms, I was overwhelmed. He seemed like my own little baby. The way he looks at you with those cute big eyes, there is no way you couldn't fall for him. And then the way he just fits right in your lap and goes to sleep, Ah! Like a cute little soft toy come alive. It’s pure love; only you know how it feels.

And as I said it, his responsibilities are no less than growing up a kid. My day starts and ends with him. From every meal to making him sleep, since morning I'm after him. Likewise his name, he's a prize I own. And now, he has become so attached to me that he won't sleep till I sing lullaby to him and won't eat till I feed him. I never knew someone would get so close to me. You complete me. You have suddenly become my little world. And though, you give me a scary thought, that one day you will be gone; I shall cherish every moment till you're around!

Without You !

How hard is it to accept? To accept the change in your life, to accept that someone is gone; maybe for now or maybe Forever! Not so easy my friend. Things change, slowly everything and everyone in your life is replaced. You tend to lose it all, but the only hope that shall keep you going; is something better is on its way. But how long shall you continue to go with the flow? Doesn’t it prick you at some end, with all the time you waited and the patience you kept? Till when shall you let go things, lose everything you had and left with just one abstract feeling: mere hope!

Like those shattered broken hearts, who gave it up in the end; I was one among the lot. I lost those I loved, cared for with nothing in return but the only need of their permanent presence in life. But as they say it, nothing is permanent. They came and left and I lived with a hope that someday someone shall come, who’ll stay till I survive; or as they call it ‘forever’. I waited for someone to come, and now that I lost everyone; I give up.

I have given up faith in Whom the world resides, I have given up hope in every being, I have forgotten the feeling of love and being loved; and I’m only surviving. I changed, every time someone left but no one noticed why I changed; just that I did. Couldn’t someone wait and ask, wasn’t someone concerned? Was it me who made the wrong choices or was I dying inside. But, Karma has its own plans. Something happened, someone noticed; and maybe that someone had come. Maybe he was the One I awaited for so long! 

He said he cared as a friend, I did too. Friendship wasn’t why he came; he came to make me fall in love with him, everyone, and everything and to make me realize it’s a beautiful life I have been gifted with. I was scared from the feeling to fall in love, for every time I loved- I thereby lost. I was trembled by his sore touch, by the way things were going; like everything was about to be something different; something I had never experienced before. If only my past hadn’t frightened me, I would have been His. For once I wouldn’t have faked the smile, for once I would have held his clasp and walked this path of life together.

But i could never keep love. I could never keep someone or let him stay by me forever. One mistake shall bring things back. That one denial has got me here; to the gloominess, to the shiver in my hands, lacking hope and happiness; for it shall never be Me and You- Cause without me it’s just a pessimistic little ‘Me’.. It was always ‘You’ that made ‘Me’ complete.  

Life over a cup of coffee :)

I was born with a different spirit, with a different dream in my mind and chose my own bunch of people. I was born not to be like you, but a different Me. I came across different people; some turned out to be good friends ; while some hated my guts and chose to be true enemies; whereas few never took either of the side. They were there, only to suffice me when loneliness killed me. I could never keep someone forever, because whoever came and left; was only a lesson I learnt in life. Your past isn’t always a part of your present; and your present doesn’t always turn out to be your future.

It’s never about me or you, but a problem all of us share. We tend to forgive ourselves for something we did yesterday but refrain to forget what someone said. We fail to accept someone for his individuality and turn out to be judgmental. It’s not our fault, but the society we have been brought up in; that forces us to choose between the odds. We end up criticizing what one does, even if it’s for good. A profession doesn’t make you who you are, but your soul does. We get biased; depending on the colour, caste, creed, nature, economy or even how one reacts in a particular condition!

Why not accept one whoever and however he is, and make this world a beautiful place to live in? Its only when you accept everyone that you shall befriend the world. When we were kids, we never thought who’s who. We just shared chocolates, fought for silly things, loved ice-creams and cherished moments which now have turned into beautiful memories. And that's the reason, childhood always seems better than the life we live- the life which forces you to be a different person in different circumstances, makes you turn into a hypocrite, choosing lie over truth and being diplomatic over an honest critic.

One major reason behind the suicidal cases including students, youngsters or middle-aged people is the peer pressure. You are forced to be someone you are not, to do something above your aptitude and in that on-going process; you tend to give up. But before you take a step down to give up the life you lead; hold on for a minute and think- Did they come up to face what you have been going through, to face every dilemma, fondle every piece of what you got and admire life in all its spirits? It was you who hid the agony and still came home with a smile just to make sure everyone around you are jubilant.

You cannot let someone judge the life you have been living. You cannot let a third person change your opinion or decide whether you’re a sylph or a slut. Everyone makes mistakes and you don’t end up regretting it; but remember what it taught you. You never choose a book by its cover, a story by its title or a person by who he seems to be. Maybe it’s the circumstances that forced you to be who you are or a choice you made to survive in this society. Never let someone let you down, for you own the smile on your face. You own your life and the right to live it the way you wish. And if criticism hinders you from the path you choose, you give them a reason to be critical and somehow envy you for who you are!